This is one of the few times in my life i get insomnia excluding events which made me nervous after living so long. The previous entry was probably the most emotional entry i have ever made. So unlike me but i guess it's just normal to be sad and everything when things doesnt go the way u wan it to, especially in a relationship.

Every nite since thursday, that fateful night, I had been struggling to sleep. I tried staying up damn late to make myself tired so that my mind wouldnt wander when i tried to sleep. I didnt even give it a thought that i was working tomorrow. I told myself i had to let her go although i didnt wan to. But the more i told myself not to think abt her, the more i thought of her. Thought abt how she was actually feeling, was she even sad that we're going to end just like this, or was she continuing life as normal cos i know this year and attachment is really important to her and it is not really a good time to be emotionally affected.

Yep so i thought and i thought, eventually got to the sofa. Looked at the night sky, thought back, slowly feeling the tiredness and eventually falling asleep. Amongst my sea of thoughts was how do i actually forget her, as we head towards a break up, which is like really, cruelly, confirmed. Then this idea came up, I thought of putting away everything that was associated with her, items, letters, pictures into a corner of my drawer. It seemed like a viable option, we all watched drama dont we?? I guess it is an option but onli as a beginning one. For u to hurt less as u see less stuff associated with her, thought less of her and eventually put her away into one corner of ur life after a few weeks? months? I dun noe. Only time will tell.

Maybe we shouldnt have thought so much into our future. We were planning to watch Hancock together and even have breakfast at NTU's macdonalds. Now that we're in this stage, all these plans are obviously, cancelled. Now, i dun even noe how i'm going to face her if i do see her inside ntu or out on the streets. Do i smile for we are still friends? Do i look away so that it doesnt trigger the pain i tried hard to isolate. I dun noe again. And to think that i was thinking of how i was going to accept her if she turned back for me. Now all that has become irrelevant.

That's the end of the post, triggered after lunch where i suddenly thought more and more of her until i really cant take it already and there u go another emo entry by me. So enjoy ur lives, treasure ur relationships, hold on tight to your girl and dun be a player guys. And yes I'm working now..=)